A Mother's Love

A couple of days ago I was watching the movie Forrest Gump, which happens to be one of my favorites. I get teary eye every time I see how hard his mother fought to keep him in school. It is a true testament of the love of a mother for their child. I know I would do anything for my babies and my mother my has definitely shown me she would do it for me as well.
I often hear people say they would die without their mother's, but I would truly be lost without mine. My mom has always helped me out of tough situations more than I can count. I haven't always been an easy child to deal with, especially when I was younger. A few years ago I went through a rebellious streak and I made my mom's life a living hell, staying out late, drinking and doing the exact opposite of what my parents wanted me to do. It is not something I'm proud of, but it made me learn and grow. I just wish I hadn't hurt my mom in the process. Even with all my mistakes and the headaches I know I gave her, my mom's love has never waiver. To the contrary she showed me more love when she should have been hating me, but a mother's love for their child is not something easy to brake.
As I mentioned before we are going through a rough financial situation right now and once again my mother is there to help us through it. If it wasn't for her we would be truly screwed. I just hope that one day I can repay her somewhat for all she's done for me.

My wild Baby Girl

Anyone who has ever said that little girls are better behaved than little boys must not have one of their own. My baby girl is 1 and from the moment she was born she has been our feisty little troublemaker. When I heard her cry for the first time she had an angry cry and immediately began throwing her hands around as if trying to fight the nurses. Even at a few months old I could tell she had a shorter fuse than her older brother, her temper would go from 0-10 in a second. I know they say that each child is different, but I didn't think their characters and personalities were going to be so opposite from each other. She's a little dare devil and our son has always been extremely cautious. She loves to fight and will not hesitate to defend herself if need be, to were her brother was more relax. The Hubbs always said that we had it too good with the first one, therefore we were going to struggle more with this one. Although, I don't quite see it that way, I do have to admit it has been a bumpier road this time around, but I love her strong personality and the fact that she will definitely always stand up for herself.
Even with as wild as my baby girl is I wouldn't change anything about her, regardless she will always be my sweet baby girl.

What they don't tell you about Breastfeeding

A little over a year ago I had this awesome idea to breastfeed my baby girl. I didn't have the opportunity to do it with my son for too long because he was born premature and the hospital nurses got him used to a bottle (story for another time). Therefore, with my daughter I was determined to breastfeed no matter what, I wanted that "special" bond every nursing mother talks about. It started off rough for both of us, but I wanted to succeed, especially since nobody around me supported the idea and I'm a bit of a "I'll show you" kind of gal. All was great until around the 4th month when I got a clogged duct and omgoodness let me tell you that SUCKS! I was in so much pain and the remedy was probably more painful than the actual situation, but I got over it. I continued to nurse, a little apprehensive, but continued none the less and around the 9th month I got an infection on the other side. Needless to say I was over this breastfeeding idea.
 Look it's true that you build a great bond with your child that can't be put into words, but what they forget to mention is the other side of nursing. The possible clogged ducts, the infections, the bites once these munchkins get the first little teeth, how super attached they get to you and not to mention the whole part about plan your schedule around breastfeeding so your boobs aren't engorged and hurting.
My daughter is a year now and she still wants to nurse non-stop, every time I attempt to wean her it's a crying session and she won't take the bottle at all. I feel bad about not feeding her so I give in after a while. I want to wean her desperately because I'm completely over breastfeeding, but I feel guilty at the same time. Some people tell me that she will give it up once she's ready, but I'm ready now! I never imagined this would turn into such a headache. I'm all for that special bond and if I could do it again with my daughter I would in a heartbeat, but you better believe I will not do it again if we have another kid.