Today the U.S. is reeling yet again from another tragedy that has taken two lives and injured many others.If you haven't heard or live under a rock, we had another terrorist attack, in Boston. It happened at a marathon race being held in the city of Boston, Mass. Someone detonated a couple of bombs at the finish line and set other ones at other locations in the city. Thank God not all the bombs went off, but what an incredible act of cowardice.
From what I have seen in the news an 8 year old little girl died and it brakes my heart to pieces. I have children and I cannot imagine the pain that her parents are going through. She went to a race to walk for other little children, also victims of a nut job, and she lost her life. It scares me to realize that my children will have to grow up with that kind of fear because a few nut jobs feel they can be God. Long gone are the days where families could attend public events as this one and feel safe. It is a sad reality that my children will have to grow up with.
My prayers are with these people in Boston, but my heart goes out to the families of the 2 persons killed. I'm sorry that it had to happen at all, but most of all I'm sorry that such evil is allowed to keep breathing while a little angel can no longer do it. There is a lot I could say about this, but for now this is it.
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Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Determination
Yesterday the hubbs asked me about a workout dvd I had purchased a while back. He didn't ask me for it for him, instead he asked about it indirectly to ask if I was still working out with it. He made me feel like crap primarily
because in a way I know that was his way of telling me I'm lagging it in
the weight loss. I'm not mad at him for hinting at this, but it did made me a bit sad. It mostly made me sad because I wish dearly that by now I would be smaller than I am right now.
However, I have began to get a hold of my bad eating habits. I have stopped drinking soda and even though each day is a challenge, so far I have stayed in the straight and arrow. I have not been eating out at all, but my eating habits at home can be better. I have to retrain myself to eat every 2-3 hours in small portions. I don't know why this is so hard for me, it's almost like something in my brain is telling me that we're going to run out of food or something and I need to eat more. Hopefully I can get rid of that bad habit fast because it is really deterring me from my goal.
I wish I could get back that willpower I had before I found out I was pregnant. I think back to that time and I remember how awesome I felt. I was eating extremely clean and would exercise daily. For the first time in my life I felt like I was in control. I was sticking to a healthy lifestyle and achieving weight loss the right way. It was teaching me discipline and hard work and I loved it. Some times it truly makes me feel sad that I can't get back to that mind set. Lately though I've been trying my hardest to get back on the wagon and when I do I will be unstoppable I promise you this.
However, I have began to get a hold of my bad eating habits. I have stopped drinking soda and even though each day is a challenge, so far I have stayed in the straight and arrow. I have not been eating out at all, but my eating habits at home can be better. I have to retrain myself to eat every 2-3 hours in small portions. I don't know why this is so hard for me, it's almost like something in my brain is telling me that we're going to run out of food or something and I need to eat more. Hopefully I can get rid of that bad habit fast because it is really deterring me from my goal.
I wish I could get back that willpower I had before I found out I was pregnant. I think back to that time and I remember how awesome I felt. I was eating extremely clean and would exercise daily. For the first time in my life I felt like I was in control. I was sticking to a healthy lifestyle and achieving weight loss the right way. It was teaching me discipline and hard work and I loved it. Some times it truly makes me feel sad that I can't get back to that mind set. Lately though I've been trying my hardest to get back on the wagon and when I do I will be unstoppable I promise you this.
Monday, February 11, 2013
The Aftermath of Birth
I never gave postpartum depression much thought. After I had my son almost 7 years ago, I never felt sad or any of the symptoms related to it. I quit work to become a stay at home mom and it was one of the happiest times of my life.
The second time around has not been as smooth as the first time though. This transition to becoming a full time mom has not been easy at all. It's been almost a year now since I quit my job and I'm barely getting into the groove of things. Since having my daughter I wouldn't say that I have felt sad or depressed, just unmotivated. Unmotivated to continue my weight loss I had began before I got pregnant, to finish different projects I began, or to go back to school. It's been hard for me to get myself in a schedule, much less my daughter and it's extremely hard to do it when you have absolutely no motivation. Unfortunately, it's hard for me to talk to anyone around me about it, they may not understand it, especially since in my culture that is a taboo subject. Among Hispanics postpartum depression is non-existent and if you feel any related symptom you better hurry up and get over it, sad to say, but that is how it is.
It has taken me a while to realize and accept that I may be going through some sort of depression, but now that I have, I feel like I can move forward. This is part of the reason why I created this blog, so that I can have a way to vent my thoughts and feelings.
The second time around has not been as smooth as the first time though. This transition to becoming a full time mom has not been easy at all. It's been almost a year now since I quit my job and I'm barely getting into the groove of things. Since having my daughter I wouldn't say that I have felt sad or depressed, just unmotivated. Unmotivated to continue my weight loss I had began before I got pregnant, to finish different projects I began, or to go back to school. It's been hard for me to get myself in a schedule, much less my daughter and it's extremely hard to do it when you have absolutely no motivation. Unfortunately, it's hard for me to talk to anyone around me about it, they may not understand it, especially since in my culture that is a taboo subject. Among Hispanics postpartum depression is non-existent and if you feel any related symptom you better hurry up and get over it, sad to say, but that is how it is.
It has taken me a while to realize and accept that I may be going through some sort of depression, but now that I have, I feel like I can move forward. This is part of the reason why I created this blog, so that I can have a way to vent my thoughts and feelings.
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