My big boy

When my son was born everyone told me to enjoy him while he was small because soon he wouldn't be a baby any more. At the time I wished he would hurry up and walk and talk, so I could play with him and enjoy him more. Now I see him and I realize how right those people were. I go through pictures of when he was small and I cannot believe he was ever that small. My little guy was born very small and to see how big he is now makes me a bit teary eye. 
With my daughter being born I some times feel guilty that I don't give him enough quality time. I guess it can also be mommy guilt, but some times I feel like I don't tell him I love him enough. At times I feel like I'm too short with him and it bugs me because I had never been like this with him. Some times I wish I could go back in time and enjoy his infancy more, but I realize that time is gone and I should enjoy him now.
When I speak to him I realize how fast his mind is developing and it amazes me. I realize he is a big boy not only physically, but mentally too. He likes to remind me that he is not a baby anymore, but I always tell him that no matter how old he gets he will always be my baby.

Whats the Perfect Number?

I had someone tell me that the Hubbs and I are making a mistake by not having more kids. So I ask them what is the perfect number? Is there really a perfect number? I don't think so, in my opinion it's whatever you and your partner feel comfortable with.
Originally the Hubbs and I wanted 4-5 babies. We had my son and waited almost 6 years to have our daughter. There were definitely a lot of circumstances that made us wait this long, but I think we made the right choice. After I had her we still felt like maybe having one more, but as time went by we decided we were done. The truth of the matter is kids require a lot of attention and we don't think we can give our children quality time if we have more. I constantly find myself having to sacrifice time with my son because my daughter needs me. I used to volunteer a lot at his school and now because I don't have a reliable babysitter during the day I cannot do this as easily. A lot of people just think about money when it comes to planning a family, but they should be thinking about time as well. More than money and possessions children need their parents to be there and nurture them. What's the point of having a lot of kids if you never get to see them because you have to work hard to support them? I believe if more parents realized this we would have less children out there doing anything to get a little bit of attention.
Big families where probably a great idea back in the 20th Century when life was slower and much simpler, but now in this hectic world, in my opinion, it doesn't make much sense.

Interracial Couple

While I was growing up I very rarely saw any interracial couples, mostly due to the fact that I lived in a predominantly Hispanic community. However, once I got older and began dating, I didn't find it weird to date someone of a different race or culture, it actually became the norm for me. Therefore, the reaction I got when I introduce my husband to my family and friends, was very shocking to me. I never expected any of them to have such prejudice against my husband for being white. Before then I hadn't even really realized we were an interracial couple. My parents and brothers where fine with my decision, but some of my cousins felt that I was making a mistake. They said we didn't have a thing in common and that our relationship wouldn't work because of the differences in our backgrounds, I decided to prove them wrong. It's amazing to me how we're in the year 2013 and people still find it necessary to stare at us when we're somewhere. What is even more amazing is that my race is the one that stares the most and that some of my family members still question my decision to marry a "white" guy. You would think that as diverse in culture as California is, nobody would find it unusual anymore to see an interracial couple.
As I mentioned before we have been married now for nearly a decade and together longer than that. Yeah, our cultures and backgrounds are different, but emotionally we are the right fit. I love him for who he is and not his background. I love that our children will grow up to know and learn from two different cultures. The way that I see it is, if you love somebody neither race, nor color should matter. At the end of the day we all have the same heart and the same color blood pumps through them.

A little bit of me

I thought this might be a good time to give a little of my background to you my readers. I'm originally from Mexico, but came to this great Country when I was 4. I have been married for nearly 10 years and have two kids, a boy and a girl. My son is in 1st grade and my little girl is only a year old. They keep me busy and although some times they drive me crazy, I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm passionate about a lot of things like photography, scrapbooking, reading, and making crafts. Even though I don't get the opportunity to do these a lot when I do I love it and I will share these here as well. As I told you before I'm a stay at home mom and the reason why I started writing this blog was to express my feelings. With the hubbs being at work the majority of the time I rarely have anybody to speak to, at least anybody who can make conversation with me.
With that being said, the weekend is here and I'm excited. The Hubbs may have Saturday off, which means we might actually get to do something as a family. We don't get too many two day weekends, so when we do we try to take advantage and do something. A few years back his demanding work schedule would have created a lot of problems between us, but it is amazing how some things turn into priority. Have a great weekend everybody be safe!

Determination

Yesterday the hubbs asked me about a workout dvd I had purchased a while back. He didn't ask me for it for him, instead he asked about it indirectly to ask if I was still working out with it. He made me feel like crap primarily because in a way I know that was his way of telling me I'm lagging it in the weight loss. I'm not mad at him for hinting at this, but it did made me a bit sad. It mostly made me sad because I wish dearly that by now I would be smaller than I am right now.
However, I have began to get a hold of my bad eating habits. I have stopped drinking soda and even though each day is a challenge, so far I have stayed in the straight and arrow. I have not been eating out at all, but my eating habits at home can be better. I have to retrain myself to eat every 2-3 hours in small portions. I don't know why this is so hard for me, it's almost like something in my brain is telling me that we're going to run out of food or something and I need to eat more. Hopefully I can get rid of that bad habit fast because it is really deterring me from my goal.
I wish I could get back that willpower I had before I found out I was pregnant. I think back to that time and I remember how awesome I felt. I was eating extremely clean and would exercise daily. For the first time in my life I felt like I was in control. I was sticking to a healthy lifestyle and achieving weight loss the right way. It was teaching me discipline and hard work and I loved it. Some times it truly makes me feel sad that I can't get back to that mind set. Lately though I've been trying my hardest to get back on the wagon and when I do I will be unstoppable I promise you this.

Huntington Beach, California

I love taking pictures, I'm not a professional, but it is one of my favorite hobbies. I take pictures of everything and anything. I love it because to me pictures represent beautiful memories that can stay still in time forever. Every Wednesday I will share some of my photography with you. I hope you enjoy it. To hit off this tradition I want to share with you a bit of where I live. I'm from California and we're known for our great weather and beaches. One of the most popular beaches here is Huntington Beach. During the summer that is one of the best beaches to go to. I recommend it to anyone touring our state. You will not be disappointed.

The Huntington Beach Pier

The Scenery is unbelieveable

Yes, we have some of these too.

 

 The Sunsets are Beautiful

Marriage Talk

Lately I've been asking myself a couple of questions. What makes a marriage or relationship work? Why are so many people stuck in loveless relationships? I have friends whom are married that constantly complain about how unhappy they are with their spouses. It is never for one particular reason either, it seems like they're unhappy with the relationship overall. The way I see it if something or someone is making your life miserable then get it away from it as fast as possible.
When I have advised friends to leave the relationship if it makes them that unhappy, they answer with it's not that easy.  I know it is not especially when you have a family, but some times it is the best thing to do. Being in a loveless marriage doesn't only make one or two people unhappy, it affects the entire family and some times the children more than the parents. My husband and I had to walked away and it was the best decision we could have made when it came to our marriage. We walked away twice, but we realized in the end we really wanted our marriage to work. The separation made us realized what we had was worth fighting for and we decided to work on it. This was 5 years ago and since then our relationship has been stronger than ever.
I understand that it doesn't always work out the way it did for us, but some times you need to loose something to value its existence.